i am sick of things that are so uncertain..

why do people likes to put people down to make them feel better? even for friends that they would be so hypocritical? so many times that i put myself to let her be real to me and everything she disappoints me.. i treated her as a real friend... trusted her but yet it's proven that she is a two faced who wants to prove that she is better than me. does it really give so much satisfaction to prove that she is better? why does she have to jeopardie our friendship? from the outside, she looks so nice and helpful, but actually deep inside her are insecurities, competitive, jealousy.. i have to tell myself to be smart to stay away from these people because the closer you are to them, the more they are able hurt you. I wouldnt wanna put myself in such vulnerable position. i think i have to learn to keep my joy to myself or only share with people whom can be trusted if not it will only backfire.. i am just very upset about everything that is happening and i know it's not easy to keep close to God when things dun go right.. i kept telling myself that i have to learn to give thanks and have faith no matter what.

Lord, I pray for a heart of thanksgiving and compassion that I will be able to love my enemies.
i give thanks that i realised it now and not later if not definitely, i will be even more upset and hurt.